Releasing 10 Chapter 167: Losing My Grip – Lizzie’s Traumatic Encounter
⚠️ Spoiler Notice
This page contains explicit details of a sexual assault that occurs in Chapter 167. If you have not yet read this chapter, please proceed with caution or return later.
Summary
On November 1, 2003, Lizzie arrives at Hugh’s house soaking wet, clutching a half-empty whiskey bottle, with no memory of how she got there. She is heavily intoxicated and disoriented. Mistaking a shaved-headed boy (not Hugh) for her boyfriend, she stumbles into Hugh’s bedroom. The boy manipulates her drunken state, touching her and eventually having intercourse with her while she believes she is with Hugh. Lizzie cries during the act, and the boy briefly stops when he notices her tears, but she insists he continue, still thinking he is Hugh. She dissociates and relives fragments of past trauma. The chapter ends with her pleading for him not to leave.
Key Events
- Lizzie enters Hugh’s house drunk and confused, unable to remember her phone password or what people say to her.
- She climbs the stairs seeking Hugh and finds a shaved-headed boy on his bed.
- The boy tells her he is also on “Biggsie’s shit list,” suggesting he knows Hugh.
- Lizzie expresses her love for Hugh and her feeling that he doesn’t want her.
- The boy responds by touching her, escalating to digital penetration and then intercourse.
- Lizzie believes the boy is Hugh, calling out Hugh’s name and asking him not to stop.
- She experiences flashbacks to another voice calling her “munchkin” and telling her not to be a crybaby.
- After the boy finishes, he notices her crying and offers to stop, but Lizzie begs him to stay, still mistaking his identity.
- She is left alone with the aftermath of the assault.
Character Development
- Lizzie (Elizabeth): This chapter reveals the depth of Lizzie’s vulnerability and her desperate need for connection with Hugh. Her intoxication and dissociation suggest possible prior trauma (the “munchkin” flashbacks imply a history of abuse). She is unable to give meaningful consent, and her emotional state is fragile.
- The Unnamed Boy: He deliberately takes advantage of a clearly intoxicated girl. He does not correct her mistaken identity and proceeds with sexual activity despite her altered state and eventual tears. His actions are predatory and constitute sexual assault.
- Hugh (“Biggsie”): He is absent throughout the scene, but his significance to Lizzie is clear. Her obsession with him clouds her judgment and leaves her vulnerable.
Themes, Symbols, or Motifs
- Intoxication and Consent: Lizzie’s extreme drunkenness is highlighted from the opening lines. The chapter starkly illustrates how alcohol can strip a person of agency and make them a target.
- Dissociation and Trauma: Lizzie’s flashback to a voice calling her “munchkin” and telling her not to be a “crybaby” points to a history of sexual abuse. During the assault, she mentally leaves her body, staring lifelessly at the wall.
- Deception and Identity: The boy never reveals he is not Hugh; he lets Lizzie believe she is with her boyfriend. This deception is central to the violation.
- Crying and Helplessness: Lizzie’s tears are a constant, physical manifestation of her distress, yet the boy only reacts when he notices them, not before.
Why This Chapter Matters
This chapter is a harrowing turning point in Lizzie’s storyline. It establishes the brutal reality of her trauma, connecting her present assault to past abuse. It exposes the predatory nature of the unnamed boy and the consequences of Lizzie’s dangerous drinking. The event will likely have long-term effects on her mental health, her trust in others, and her relationship with Hugh. For readers, it underscores the novel’s unflinching examination of sexual violence and its aftermath.
Study Questions and Answers
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Question: What specific details in the chapter show that Lizzie is unable to consent to the sexual act?
Answer: Lizzie is described as having no memory of getting to the house, being unable to understand people, and saying she is “high” and “wasted.” She repeatedly calls the boy “Hugh,” shows confusion about his identity, and later dissociates. Her intoxication is severe, and her perception of reality is completely altered. -
Question: The boy says “I’m wearing a condom, but I can pull out if you want.” How does this line contribute to the theme of deception?
Answer: The boy addresses the practical aspects of the act as if it were a consensual encounter, but he has already deceived Lizzie by not correcting her mistaken identity. His concern for birth control masks his predatory behavior, making his later surprise at her tears seem disingenuous. It highlights how perpetrators can maintain a facade of care while violating someone. -
Question: What do the flashbacks to the voice calling Lizzie “munchkin” reveal about her past?
Answer: The flashbacks suggest that Lizzie has experienced previous sexual abuse, likely from a family member or authority figure who called her “munchkin” and told her not to be a “crybaby” or a “crybaby like my other one.” This implies she was groomed and victimized before, and the current assault reopens those wounds. It also explains her desperate need for Hugh’s love as a possible escape from her past.