Chapter 19: “Lucky-Go-Happy” — Summary and Analysis

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Summary

The chapter opens with Sedaris reflecting on pandemic lockdown and the ordinary things he failed to appreciate when life was normal—being handed a restaurant menu, standing close enough to a stranger to read their phone. He notes that while many people took their jobs for granted, he always loved the public part of his work: reading aloud to an audience.

His final pre-COVID performance was in Vancouver, British Columbia, in a theater he didn't care for—a rock venue with a grim, cramped lobby and a depressing dressing room. The audience was lovely, though, and he liked his hotel. At breakfast the next morning, he spotted a handsome actor from a TV series but couldn't remember his name. The show itself was typical: he read something new that didn't work as well as he'd hoped, then signed books for three hours. During the pandemic, he would obsessively revisit this last show, almost fetishizing it, and worried that when the world moved on it would do so without him—the circus would take to the road again, but not with this elephant.

He decided from the start not to get Zoom. Hugh pointed out that it wasn't something you buy or attach; you just press a button. Sedaris wanted to make sure he never pushed it. Over the next eighteen months, he did one remote event on a borrowed computer and had no idea how it went. Without a live audience—his unwitting congregation of fail-safe editors—he felt lost. He paid attention not just to laughter but to the quality of silence, groans, coughs, and snores. He wrote during the pandemic and published things, which was scary, because without a public reading he couldn't tell whether they worked. Hugh served as a limited gauge: his interruptions of