Chapter 34 Summary and Analysis
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Summary
Kennedy arrives at her expensive apartment building, where the reception staff greet her warmly. She's only there to grab clothes before heading to Isaiah's place, and she reflects that she can't remember the last time she actually slept in her own apartment—except for the nights Dean stayed over. The building is one of the most expensive in the city, but it has never felt like home to her. Isaiah's apartment, by contrast, feels like the closest thing to home she's ever known.
Most of her belongings are already at Isaiah's, but the two haven't had a conversation about making that arrangement permanent. Up until recently, Kennedy wasn't even planning to stay in Chicago. Now she is staying, and neither of them has initiated that conversation. There's also a bigger conversation she needs to have: she was offered the lead doctor position in San Francisco and turned it down.
Kennedy had been weighing the offer for days. It represented everything she thought she wanted—a new city, new people, a chance to discover happiness with her newfound freedom. But she realized she didn't need to move to find what she was looking for. When Isaiah told her he loved her, without expecting anything in return, she knew she had found it. For the first time in her life, she could believe someone felt that way about her because he had spent months showing her.
She turned down the job for him, but also for herself. Before Isaiah, loneliness was comfortable—the only thing she knew. Now she has a chance at a future where she isn't so alone, and she doesn't want to mess that up. She hasn't told him about the decision because she knows he wouldn't let her stay if he knew she'd given up the job for him.
She hasn't seen Isaiah much lately because Atlanta's team has been in town for a series against the Warriors, and Dean has been staying at her apartment. Tonight, she's finally going back to Isaiah's. She packs a duffel bag with enough clothes that she won't need to return to her apartment for a while. The penthouse is quiet and cold, with marble floors that echo the silence, and she hates it. She wants to be warm in Isaiah's bed, at family dinner with Miller, or listening to the guys in the training room.
She turns on the TV for background noise. The station is set to an MLB network that runs game highlights and analyst commentary. Four analysts are discussing the looming trade deadline. They talk about non-playoff-bound teams offloading players and what playoff-bound teams are looking for. Then they mention a name Kennedy never expected to hear: rumors are circulating that Isaiah Rhodes of the Windy City Warriors is interested in a trade.
Kennedy freezes mid-pack. The analysts note that there's no way the Warriors would let him go—he's working with a career-high batting average and the team is in a secure postseason spot. But they also point out that Kai Rhodes is retiring in the fall and Isaiah has a player option next season. Maybe he's looking at different clubs, wanting to get out of Chicago. Nothing is confirmed, but the analysts suggest that where there's smoke, there's fire.
Kennedy is frozen in her bedroom, her ears ringing. She tells herself he doesn't want to leave—all his friends, his family, his brother, and Monty are here. And she stayed for him. But then the intrusive thoughts creep in: all season, they both thought she'd be leaving. They knew their marriage was temporary. One day their game would end. She stayed, and now he's trying to go. Isaiah loves her, but she fears he never signed up for forever—only for now.
She calls him. He doesn't answer. She tries again and gets voicemail. Texts flood in from Miller, Kai, Cody, and Travis, all asking about the rumors and where Isaiah is. Kai is freaking out and demands Kennedy tell his brother to call him. Kennedy's hand is shaking. There must be enough truth to the rumors that even his brother knows something is wrong. She goes to call again when there's a knock at her front door. She knows exactly who it is.
Key Events
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Kennedy returns to her apartment to pack, reflecting that it no longer feels like home
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She reveals she was offered the lead doctor position in San Francisco and turned it down
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A TV broadcast on the MLB network reports trade rumors involving Isaiah
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Analysts cite Kai's upcoming retirement and Isaiah's player option as reasons he might leave Chicago
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Kennedy's calls to Isaiah go unanswered
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Texts from Miller, Kai, Cody, and Travis confirm the rumors have spread
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A knock at her door ends the chapter—she knows who it is
Character Development
Kennedy makes a significant internal shift in this chapter. She has moved from seeing loneliness as comfortable to actively choosing a future with Isaiah. Turning down the San Francisco job represents a major sacrifice—it was everything she thought she wanted—but she realizes she's found what she was looking for in Chicago. Her decision is framed as being for him but also for herself, showing growth in her ability to accept love and belonging. However, the trade rumors immediately destabilize her newfound security. Her intrusive thoughts reveal lingering fears of abandonment: she worries that Isaiah's love was always meant to be temporary, that he committed to the present rather than a lasting future. The chapter shows her vulnerability and the fragility of her trust in the relationship's permanence.
Isaiah is absent for most of the chapter but looms large through the rumors and his silence. His failure to answer Kennedy's calls creates tension and suggests either he's avoiding a difficult conversation or the rumors have some basis in truth.
Themes, Symbols, or Motifs
Home as belonging. Kennedy's apartment is described as expensive, quiet, and cold—a place that has never felt like home. Isaiah's apartment, by contrast, represents warmth, family, and belonging. The contrast between the two spaces symbolizes her emotional journey from isolation to connection.
Sacrifice. Kennedy's decision to turn down the San Francisco job is a major sacrifice, made quietly and without telling Isaiah. She knows he wouldn't accept the sacrifice if he knew about it, so she keeps it secret—a choice that carries both love and risk.
The trade deadline as metaphor. The baseball trade deadline mirrors the game Kennedy and Isaiah have been playing. Just as players can be traded when their contracts end, Kennedy fears their relationship was always temporary. The rumors suggest Isaiah might be the one to leave, inverting her expectation that she would be the one to go.
Fear of abandonment and intrusive thoughts. Kennedy's spiral after hearing the rumors shows how quickly her hard-won security can be shaken. Her fear that Isaiah signed up for now rather than forever reveals the core anxiety beneath her growth.
Communication breakdown. Isaiah's unanswered calls and the flood of texts from friends highlight how rumors can spread faster than truth. The chapter ends with a knock at the door, suggesting the confrontation is about to begin.
Why This Chapter Matters
This chapter delivers two major revelations that reshape the story's trajectory. First, Kennedy's decision to turn down the San Francisco job is a pivotal character moment—she has chosen Isaiah and Chicago over the career opportunity she once thought she wanted. This sacrifice raises the stakes of their relationship and creates a secret she's keeping from him.
Second, the trade rumors introduce a new source of conflict. Kennedy stayed for Isaiah, but the rumors suggest he might leave. This inversion—she was supposed to be the one leaving—destabilizes everything she's built her decision on. The chapter ends on a cliffhanger with a knock at her door, setting up the confrontation that will likely define the next chapter.
Study Questions and Answers
1. Why did Kennedy turn down the San Francisco position, and why hasn't she told Isaiah?
Kennedy turned down the lead doctor position because she realized she didn't need to move to a new city to find happiness. Isaiah's love—expressed without expectation—showed her she had already found what she was looking for. She made the decision for him but also for herself, choosing a future where she isn't alone. She hasn't told him because she knows he wouldn't let her stay if he knew she'd given up the job for him. She's keeping the sacrifice secret to protect his ability to accept her choice.
2. How do the trade rumors affect Kennedy's sense of security?
The rumors shatter the security she had just begun to feel. She had decided to stay in Chicago, believing Isaiah's love was real and permanent. The rumors suggest he might want to leave, which triggers intrusive thoughts about the temporary nature of their arrangement. She fears that Isaiah's love was always meant to be temporary—that he committed to the present rather than a lasting future. The fact that Isaiah isn't answering his phone amplifies her anxiety.
3. What does the chapter reveal about the difference between Kennedy's apartment and Isaiah's apartment as home?
Kennedy's apartment is described as expensive, quiet, and cold—a place with marble floors that echo silence. It has never felt like home, even though it's one of the most expensive buildings in the city. Isaiah's apartment, by contrast, represents warmth, family, and belonging. Kennedy says she wants to be warm in Isaiah's bed, at family dinner with Miller, or with the guys in the training room. The contrast shows that home isn't about physical luxury but about emotional connection and belonging.
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