Chapter 19 Summary: The Accidental Unionization of a Midwest Baptist Church

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Summary

The chapter opens during a Sunday church service. Pastor Young announces that a counselor found a prayer book in one of the girls' cabins after camp ended. He explains that every camper received a prayer book at the start of the week as a place for reflection and communication with God. He then begins reading aloud from the book, revealing private passages about the writer's feelings for another girl—descriptions of holding hands, the sensation of a thumb running down a wrist, and the writer questioning whether something that feels so right could truly be a sin, including a desire to kiss the girl in question.

Riley watches Julia's reaction—her face goes white, her hands grip the pew. Riley remembers how secretive Julia was with her writing, how she always shielded it from prying eyes. Amanda also recognizes the book. Riley clutches Amanda's hand, and Amanda squeezes back.

Pastor Young continues reading with derision, then closes the book and delivers a sermon about sin and forgiveness. He quotes Psalm 51:10 and calls on the girls to come forward and confess. Riley thinks about how Julia panicked after their kiss, how she couldn't say the word