Chapter 21 Study Guide: Summary, Analysis, and Key Takeaways
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Summary
Joe arrives at Sadie's apartment for what both of them understand will be the final attempt at the portrait. Sadie has already accepted that the painting will not win the North American Portrait Society competition. The realization that she is going to lose is oddly freeing: she no longer has to paint the kind of polished, Rockwell-style portrait that won her previous competitions. She can paint something true instead.
Before Joe arrives, Sue calls with a pep talk. When Sadie asks if she can win, Sue answers bluntly that she cannot. But Sue pushes Sadie to redefine what success means. She suggests Sadie stop trying to make the kind of portrait she cannot currently make and instead capture the story of her life right now—the chaos, the uncertainty, the longing. Sue also observes, from across international borders, that Sadie might be in love with her subject. Sadie does not argue.
When Joe arrives, Sadie explains her new plan: she read about an artist who paints self-portraits by touch with her eyes closed, and she wants to do the same to Joe. She asks him to take off his shirt, and he agrees without hesitation. The session that follows lasts two hours. Sadie maps Joe's face and torso with her hands, working from his collarbone to his jaw, memorizing the angles of his cheekbones, the arc of his eyebrows, the lines around his mouth. She is intensely aware of his breathing, his cedar-and-juniper aftershave, the warmth of his skin. She paints with her eyes closed to feel him, opening them only to watch the brushstrokes appear on the canvas. The result is a dynamic early painted sketch—not a perfect likeness, but something alive.
After the session, Sadie asks Joe about Dr. Michaux. She has assumed he is hooking up with the herpetologist, given how often he emerges from her apartment. Joe laughs and explains he is pet-sitting her snakes. The brown bags Sadie saw him carrying were full of live mice.
This revelation leads Sadie to bring up the